Greatest Loss

He was so innocent
He was so small
Depending on me
To never let him fall
I tried not to
But I let him down
He was the one thing
We could call our own
I tried to protect him
Tried to keep him safe
By the time I realized what happened
It was all too late
It's all my fault
Look what that monster has done
He took away a part of us
He took away our son
All this pain, it's so unfair
My heart just feels so torn
He took away our precious son
Before he was even born
How do you get over this
How do you get by
When you can show no emotion
And you can't even cry
I want that beast to pay
For hurting our little boy
I hope he lives in misery
Never feeling an ounce of joy
Is it wrong to want him punished
Is it wrong to want him dead
I want him to feel the pain I felt
To hear every word I've said
How can we start over new
How can we start over fresh
That baby was made of our blood
That baby was made of our flesh
For the first time in 12 years
I sat last night and I prayed
For someone to come and hurt him
Or just make him go away
This is something that can't be fixed
And it can't be undone
But I won't go down without a fight
I won't let him think he's won
One day he will know
About what he did to me
Then, and only then
Can our son's soul rest in peace.