Realization

Starring into the light from a stick full of stearic acid. Realizing the monster I've Become internally, full of anger and forgiving no one for their betrayal. This bi-polaristic rage of mine runs through my veins, as heroine runs through the bloodstream of an addict, who has no reason to live. Suicide pondered my head, then it evaporated....it's back, but worse. So worse i have it planned down to the exact day, hour , and second. even how i's going to be done. I have seen my future while remembering my past. My future is the reason for my short living. the future is no place for one as such.