Not the Same Anymore

"I love you."
You lied to me
"I miss you, baby."
I can't believe I couldn't see

September 25 2005
8:21 PM at night
That's when I said yes
And everything felt right.

You were the missing piece
That all this time I'd been looking for
You were everything that I wanted
And so much more.

You gave me the love I wanted
The love that I'd always wish I had
You knew when to be serious, when funny
And knew how to make me smile when sad.

You took me to the land of ectasy
Every time we meet
You knew exactly what to say and what to do
To sweep my off my feet.

You knew when something was wrong
Even saw through my mask
Which was something that everyone
Found as a difficult task

No one could tell
When I was smiling for real
No one could read my expression
Or figure out the way I feel

Yet you always knew
When something was wrong
And always knew when I felt weak
And always made me stay strong.

You knew when I needed a hug
And when I needed someone to hold
You knew when I felt lonely
And when I didn't want lies to unfold.

You even figured out
That I had a huge crush on you
And because of that
You told me that you felt the same way I do

You brought me the happiness
That I dearly needed
And the expectations I had
You surprisingly exceeded.

You would make me so happy
Calling me at random times everyday
Made me laugh more than I ever had
And always had something to say

Told me "I love you" all the time
And called me YOUR baby
The sweet little things you did
Always seemed to drive me crazy

Everyone saw us as the Perfect Couple
Didn't see any flaws when it came to us
Our relationship was stable
And there was plenty of trust

But then one day
It all came tumbling down
You grew extremely distant
And my smile became a frown.

Without even saying anything
You decided that it was time to end
Breaking it off after only two weeks
And becoming just friends

But even that ended
I didn't understand why
You wouldn't talk to me anymore
And just looked me coldly in the eye

I finally broke down
And couldn't take it anymore
I locked away all my feelings
And acted as I did before

I continued to smile
And then at home, I cried
I don't understand
Why I couldn't have just died.

After losing you I hated the world
As our existances slowly began to fade
We became complete strangers
And broke apart the friendship that we made

Now I'm almost completely done
I don't feel the way that I used to
Now I can stop wishing you'd say to me
"I love you."
[c] 2O06