Turns into more!

I started off with juss one and one alone.
I didnt think it turn into more but i soon relized it did.
That first one came cuz of him i didnt think id make it through so i grabed it,
I closed my eyes as i slid it across and pictures started flashin in my mind.
I knew this wasnt right i knew i should stop so down it went and i covered it up swearin i would nver pick it back up.
I was fine i stayed away til one day i could take no more
i was finnish i was pissed i grabed it once mone after swearin i never would.
I slid across not one this time but two and three
blood was flowin and so was pictures so once i again i droped it down and covered up swearin never again but in the back of my mind i knew that was a lie in another month somin would go wrong and id go back.
i was doin good i was alright one month i was good two months i was good even three months til one day i was gone havin fun they came and got me dragin me away i was pissed i ran into my room cryin sayin they had no right i throw my stuff down and looked up,
there it was juss a starin i no i shouldnt i had been good but i couldnt stop i was to weak i shoved it in deep deeper it went not one or two or three but more alot more til i could no more i was finnish i was though but not with the cutter with my life it went to deep it started to bleed all the blood juss spilt right out i was finnshed i was though im on my way up to heaven and theres no stoppin me for my cutter went to deep and ur too late