You never said it would be this hard harder then the day you left me alone and in the cold in the rain
i felt scared my daddy left me
what was i to do
for a long time my only answer for that was not feel or do anything
just get through each day and deal with it later
but one day i had to deal with it
i couldn't run away anymore like you did
so i tried to deal with it but i didn't know how
i was hurt so bad and all alone
the only thing i knew to do was take my life
but it didn't work
i tried many many times
you'll never know that the scars on my arms weren't just cuts
they were suicide attempts
they never worked
how i wish they had then i wouldn't have to be here
I'm back at the point of just not caring anymore
so what if i have a beer
or smoke a pack of cigarettes
what is it going to do to you
you are gone already and you don't feel this
I'm the one who has all this pain in my heart
I'm a ball of nothing
I'm hopeless and depressed
and its all thanks to you
