Why?

As i go on day by day
Seeing you with her
All the pain i have inside
To keep my feelings locked up
To not show anyone how i feel
It's not as easy as it looks
Everyone thinks i'm happy but no one knows the real me
My parents are mad that i smoke and drink
But never once did they ever ask my why?
They just assumed i did it because
I was a bad kid
But never will they know it was Numbing the pain and keeping me from suicide
But now that they took them away
I only have one way out
So i pick up and knife and write a suicide note
"I just couldn't deal with the pain anymore"
No one will miss me no one will care
So i slit my wrists and say goodbye

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