Hidden Meaning

The smile i give you
isn't just a lie
it's something i need
for my feelings to hide

the black dark hole
that i am now in
it's so very lonely
and my patience is wearing thin

i'm giving up
i cant go on
you say i can
but i'm just not that strong

Give me a knife
i want to bleed
give me a gun
so i can succeed
at taking my life, at being happy
doing what i've wanted for so long.