Died for him

She sits at the back of the class
surrounded by her friends
all you hear is chitter chatter
until the lesson ends
when you hear the bell ring out
she gathers up her books
she heads toward the classroom door
without giving a second look
shes the girl that everyone
would think would have it all
but inside is where she screams out loud and where the tears all fall
all the boys gather round
just to walk her home
but she gives a gentle smile
and says she walks alone
with her bag slung on her back
she heads across the street
her hair swaying in the breeze
as she slowly shuffles her feet
walking through the front door
she heads straight for the stair
running to her bedroom
relieved she made it there
she walks over to her pillow
and reaches for the knife
she wished that it would all go
she wants to end her life
she sits at her desk
and writes a detailed note
with an explanation
finished by a quote
its reads I'm so sorry mommy
i no its note your fault
but when he left me mommy
my world stopped to halt
i cant carry on mommy
not heading this way
i cant keep going mommy
not seeing him each day
he made me feel whole mommy
he took away my pain
i need him back mommy i really do
i need his love again
tell daddy I'm sorry
and sister i love her so
I'm so sorry mommy
i really had to go
without him here my life's no-more
theres no reason to stay
i just need him back mommy
for the pain to go away
she signed it and sealed it
marked it with a kiss
she sat against her bedroom door
held the blade against her wrist
she took a deep breath
and pressed it against her skin
her last words she whispered
were, I'm still in love with him