I hate the way i feel inside

I hate the way i feel inside.
I used to love this guy.
So perfect he seemed to be
and all wrapped up, just for me

one day he says its over
i left on the ground not quite sobber.
I feel like drinking for oh so long
knowing he hasnt been here all
a-long

I can not express in words how i felt towards him
just know i would have done anything for him

Lately i started to talk to him again
he seemed so sweet like he had been
he still turned me on
and made me happy
i should have known he'd distract me

i hate the way i feel inside, when he tears my heart and soul apart
i try not to care
for i know there is more to life

he lied to me
i feel so..............?
I just hate the way i feel inside