Who me

You say only the weak choose to die,
but would you have the strength to use that knife?
Is life so bad I think this way,
or are my pills not working today,
excuses I hear for sins I see, molested, beaten, tortured........hey that was me. so should I run and hurt you too because I also have an excuse. you say what was done to you was wrong, then turn and hurt so the pain goes on......and on.. and on.. so where does true strength begin...with a knife or just being a friend