To The Man I Love

Sometime I break down and cry when I am alone in my room at night. I sit there and wish I could call you just to hear your sweet voice, just to tell you I love you.
My heart sometimes gets the best of me and my feelings become overwhelming. I don't know how much more of the stress I can take, nobody understands the way I feel inside and they always tell me that I don't have such a horrible life...
but I do and the only person that seems to understand or even care is you...
OK, fine my life might not be as bad as it seems to be to me but the way I feel is causing stress that makes me want to cry...
before you I wanted to die...
I'm not anywhere near being the person I was before...
people called me names like s***k, s**t and w***e.
but when I met you I knew I had to change, I told myself \"I am going to marry this man one day.\"
So I gave up some friends, pills and some drugs for just some \"I love yous and a couple of hugs.
I got more that I wanted and more than I need but baby don\'t worry that is NOT a bad thing. If it wasn\'t for you I could possibly be dead but having you in my life has helped to clear my head. I could never ask for more than the love you give me and living without you is something I will never be. I love you.