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Dear Diary,

Today was the day
I took a knife to my
wrist I cut it in a special
way with just a little twist.

Straight down the middle
and my pain drips away, just
another cut to finish up the day.

Dear Diary,

Another day has passed,
and again I've hit the ground
I tried to scream this time, but
haven't made a sound.

I'm locked up inside, trying to
find a way to escape, but I always
seem to fall deep into a scarlet lake.

Dear Diary,

Again I have fallen and the
pain is unreal, its just another
cut that won't ever heal.

There's just so many cuts
for everyone, all who hate me,
if you could just open your eyes
then maybe you could see..

Dear Diary,

I have wanted to leave
for so long, now I have the
chance and I soon will
be gone.

I know that no one wants me
and I've screwed up my whole
world, I just know that I'll never
be that perfect little girl.

I've tried so hard to be what
everyone says I should, but I
want to be me and the me I know
is not good.

Dear Diary,

I want to tell everyone that I
love them so much and I'm sorry
for letting them down, I'm sorry
for the pain I caused, but I
thought it would be better if I
wasn't around.

Mom, It wasn't your fault that
you broke my heart and never
tried to help me from falling apart.

Dad, you never really understood
how much I wanted to be me,
you always tried to push me into
being something else that I
couldn't be.

Dear Diary,

Today I'm leaving but, shhh...please
don't tell, because if anyone
ever knows they will know that I
messed up and fell.

My only last request is for my
family to see my last words
cause that’s the only way that I'm
ever going to be heard.

As I take my last breath I just
want you to say Diary I love you too, because I never would of gotten this far without you...

:: another poem that I'm resubmitting please vote and comment..tell me what you think