Me

I hate me
What else can I say
No matter what front i put on
I will always feel this way

It's not always been the same
But recently it's how i feel
I don't what happened to me
But the pain is unreal

I don't know how
someone could love me
I'm not great
I'm the person i tried not to be

I thought finding him would help
would stop the tears
I thought i would be happy again
Instead my world is still full of fear

I have people i can talk to
to help me through the storm
I'm tried of feeling unwanted
like a teddy,tattered and worn

He was supposed to pick the pieces
each part of my broken heart
he was supposed to help me live again
but its still pulling me apart

I still can't sleep at night
without a tear in my eye
i still can't smile properly
without it being a lie

I'm fed up with feeling like this
like he rules every part of me
Its been like this from day one
He just doesn't really see

is it too much to ask
to be free from all pain
is it too much to ask
to be me again?