Depression is unstopable
i try to end this life
hope isnt possible
but forget this knife
i have a new bestfriend
he is made of power
to my duty he will tend
continue my last hour
he has six excuses
this is for real
each for different uses
such a big deal
he weights heavy in my hand
i hear sinister voices
they scream in demand
\"Child make your choices!\"
tears of desicion run down my face
i feel the metal on my head
soon ill be gone from this place
as i sit up on my bed
i take a last breath
as i close my eyes
this is my death
it is time to die
my knuckles turn white
my palms are now sweaty
my eyes fall shut tight
tears are so heavy
i look deep inside myself
searching for one last voice
can this pain be dealt?
is this the right choice?
i open my painstruck eyes
i look up to the door
my mother there sighs
she collapses on the floor
laying in a puddle of tears
her whole body shakes
\"Out of all these years
i prayed that it was fake.\"
i screamed at what she said
\"Fire and hatered you gave me HELL!
i just want to be dead
can you not tell?
you never paid attention
they all tried to tell you
all the school detention
i warned you too!
you just dont care
you wished i was dead
my soul you tear!
i love you, something you never said!\"
she looked up at me
tears falling down
she uttered me a plea
\"i need you around
ive always loved you
im sorry i didnt realize
its hard for me too
such a want to die.\"
i ran into her arms
holding and being loved
i found a lucky charm
a luck from up above
today i finally knew
i am meant to live
now i tell you
i have love to give
you are here for a reason
to help and love others
enjoy every changing season
and thank God for mothers
