I had thought maybe life was always like this
To feel no love, no feelings, no enjoyment
Just to be a sitting duck
But then I looked at others around me
They seemed to feel the love, feelings, enjoyment
I started to cry
Oh how I hurt inside
All the fake smiles I gave
No one knew that I was not the same
They just thought I was this happy go lucky girl
But inside I'm clinging to my life
Oh how I want this pain to go away
All of those times I'd rather die
No one knew and no one cared
I was better off dead
My life is not normal
But to them it is
To live with unhappiness
To live in the darkness and not to live but be living
To see all of my hopes and dreams fade away
Into the darkness and just holding on to life
Wishing I were happy
I feel complete and pure emptiness
My life is like a story with no ending
I can not face it
It is so hard and confusing
I'd rather be alone
It will never stop and it never ends
Do you know how it feels?
To be helpless,hopeless, and scared
To feel unwanted
To be coasting through life as it never was
To want to be saved
But not screaming for help
Do you know how it feels?
Will you be the one to save me??
