Watching life slide by

In an emo type mood today...not sure why. tell me if this makes any sense, or is any good at all lol...

Watching life slide by

I think back on all things of my life

My brother from another mother, slitting his wrists with a knife

Finding him in a bathroom bleeding, keeled over the toilet needing

medical attention

the insanity of emotional pain, theres nothing to gain from cutting

Looking back on the day,

I asked out my girlfriend Becky,

it was the twenty-first of May

best decision of my life

infact, it kept my wrists away from the knife

depressions such a horrible thing

from knife cuts,

to the hang mans sling

siblings lie, and best friends die

all from pain often caused by one guy

my case is my moms boyfriend

i feel like the pain will never end

i promise myself I\'ll never cry

even as i take the emotional beating and

lie down, wishing that i could just die

it ain\'t ever that easy

I can\'t perform the final action of making myself free

for fear of my friends, and the pain I\'d put them through

most of them have no clue the torment i go through

it\'s for them i live and refuse the ultimate fate

of finally walking through those two pearly gates

oh wait, I\'m not going to heaven

according to BJ I\'m a heathen

sinner of the earth, thief of mirth

As life slides by, i look back on all the events of my life, and wonder my worth...