My Love is In Her Arms

I can't seem to erase these memories
They're burned right to my head
And even if I wanted to,
I can't ever forget what you said.

I lie awake for what feels like forever,
Stranded in a bittersweet nightmare.
I can almost feel your weight in my arms,
Smell the scent of your angel hair.

Every night simply gets longer
And it's more anguish in ever waking
To feel my body drenched in sweat
And the harrowing trembles of breaking.

With every inch of my soul, my heart and body
I pray to just lie in your arms again.
Let the long nights last, I'll be content,
Sweetly laying my head on your paper skin.

You're so fragile, I can see it.
Even in my distant dreams,
You're the image of a fighter,
But more damaged than it seems.

And I wish to one day heal those wounds,
Wish my kiss were your life.
And instead of savage self-destruction,
My love could be your knife.

Slicing so eloquently into your veins,
I savor every moment I'm there
The ecstasy that's in your blood,
Is the peak of every nightmare.

Metallic sugar is your skin,
Black tendrils of your hair
And the splendor of your heart against mine
Is like the beauty I can't compare.

As in my dream, your face is clear to me,
Darkness sweeps you to a silhouette.
And every night, I'm reaching for you
As you say that you'll never forget.

You say you'll never forget my love,
Nor the way our hands intertwine
The way your eyes locked in shock,
Or the feel of your heart against mine.

It rings inside my very head,
Like the first night we were together.
You said to me in a convincing whisper,
"I'll love you forever and ever".

Yet...its been so long, and I'm alone.
Every thing about you that I adore
Has become something that I dread each night
And another reason I can't live anymore.

I had it all and I had you "forever"
Now every night, I'm reminded of what she's taken.
And even if I could erase these memories,
Nothing can take back tears that I've forsaken.

Whenever she's beside you in bed,
And you're not thinking of me,
All the times I swore I'd die for you,
I'm driven mad with intense jealousy.

So, tonight, I'll soak my pillow with tears
And wake up in a cold sweat,
I'll witness my heart die, when you're in her arms,
And chase after memories you'll forget.