Why???

U know that
i wanted to die
and now all u do
is ask me y

its because everything
was falling apart
nothing else could have
mended my heart

its not ur business
but ill aanswer what u have to say
but only because i wanna
get through the day!

i didnt even want u 2 know
this isnt what i planned
and please dont look at me
and tell me u understand

u'll never understand half of
what im put through
have u ever sat there with a knife
in ur hand wondering what to do?

every single night
do u cry?
maybe this
answers the
question why!

have u ever had ur blood
fall to the floor
have u ever wondered
what ur living for?

have u ever been hit
when u were 2 by ur own dads fist?
maybe this explains
the scars on my wrist!

have u ever cried
because ur feelings r real
have u ever wondered how
ur supposed to feel?

have u ever been scared
when u hear the phone?
have u ever felt like
u were all alone?

have u ever wanted to choose
death over life?
maybe this answers why
i picked up the knife

ya somedays u may
have the blues
but u'll never know true sadness
till u walk in my shoes!

so u can say u understand and that u dont agree
but thats ok because u'll
never know the real me!!