I\'m sitting here tonight

I'm sitting here tonight
wondering what is right
all I want baby is you
but all we do is have sex
no more baby "I love you"
now its just "you wana hang out"
and I think you know where it goes from there
I'm scared I messed everything up
I'm scared I lost you
but baby come on we need to be true
its times like these that I wish I smoked pot,popped pills,did drugs to be off in my world
so I wouldn't have to feel this pain, you know
but I'm so scared to see you go
I gave you my heart and now look
its torn apart
I'm sitting here tonight
and nothing is right
my vision blurred with tears
my heart filled with freight
my mind thinking of all those times
I don't know what to do
its like I can hear those words "baby we're through" or "I'm cutting you"
I'm sitting here tonight
wishing to feel your arms around me tight
longing for you to hold me once more before you shut the "door"
I keep looking at that stupid clock
hoping that you call me and hoping that you don't just leave
I'm sitting here tonight
remembering when everything was so right
remembering the laughs, the smiles, the hugs, the kisses, all the stupid bull shit fights
so I'm sitting here tonight
wondering if things will ever be right

dedicated to my boyfriend- Charlie Sickles