Help Me

If I lift my mask
for you to see
will you have the time
to help me?
I'm tired of lying
I'm slowly dying
you don't see me crying
because you haven't
been trying
I wish for you to realize
that I'm in pain
I can't explain
what I wish to obtain
I feel like I can't tell you
what I feel inside
I'm afraid of
what you'll decide
when I tell you
I'm going to commit
suicide
I wish to be happy
why can't you see?
the darkness is killing me
I want to be free
Don't lock me up somewhere
and say it's because you care
I need help
but I can't find it there
don't dope me up
like you did before
this is a problem
we can't ignore
I'm giving in
I can't take this anymore
so much pain
It won't go away
don't ask me why I feel this way
I don't know, so I can not say
I tried to keep it at bay
but it seems it's here to stay
I'm afraid when I'm alone
I won't live to see another day
I'm at war in my head
it won't stop until I'm dead
I don't want to die
but then again,
I do
I know this is a burden
but I need you.