Why is life so hard

Thinking back on my life it makes me wanna cry.
But now i try and hold my head up high.
My dad treated us very badly.
How could he do what he did to his own family.
The marks on us may be gone.
But the memories we have are still strong.
All the times we would try to hide.
Until the day he committed suicide.
My mum pulled us through when we were sad.
And has even found us a excellent dad.
But now I'm an adult things still go wrong.
Why can't i just be strong.
I found a guy who made me happy.
We even started our own family.
But as the years went by.
All i wanted to do was cry.
I only want to be treated well.
Not like I'm living in hell.
Now it feels like there all out to get me.
I think I'm kind and loving why can't they all see.
Are all the guys out to hurt you?
thats how i feel thats for true.
I hope one day that one will see
That here i am to the best i can be.