Wish i could hack away at these feathered white wings you've placed on my back,
I don't deserve your guardian image, i am not worthy of the position you've kindly given me.
I cant bear to catch a glimpse of myself.
I can no longer stare into your beautiful blue eyes, as they peer back at me in pure innocence.
They reflect my guilt filled face with an expression of betrayal.
Through my head, the voice repeats, you're sick, you're lonely, how could you do this?
No matter how much i despise myself when i see your face,
I cannot help the way i feel when i see his.
I know you passionately love me in a way i can never love you.
I had already dedicated my life to him from the age of five,
and I'm so sorry that our childhood promise came true.
I'm so sorry that it has ruined you.
