Unknown Pain

It's happened before,
I shouldn't be surprised
But I wished I'd seen it sooner
...I wish I'd opened my eyes

Girlfriend pissed at me-
Not so bad
All other friends desert me
But it only makes me sad

All of them said it,
They're there "'til the end"
So many liars,
It's hard to comprehend

I should have seen it sooner, though
Don't know why I've been so blind
I guess I was just deluding myself-
That true friends I could find.

I hope I'll learn my lesson this time
And trust no one ever again
When they tell me "best friends forever"
I'll know that "forever" will soon end

The real funny part?
The friends don't know they're fake
They laugh and carry on
Not knowing I silently quake

They don't notice that we hang out less,
They've got lots of new friends
Why worry about one
Who, only silently, goes around the bend?

No one knows the pills I take
To quietly numb the pain
Of no one noticing how much I hurt
...But it's all done in vain

It just gets hard sometimes,
With no one to trust
But I wipe the tears away
As I allow my "steel" heart to rust.