In the night I often wonder who is going to save me? This darkness that envelops me surrounds me in a never ending illusion of something I will never have yet my heart yearns for it. Every day the desire to have it is stronger than life it's self. It burns me from the inside out ,It blinds me from the naked truth that is dead in my face, but I chose to over look it, the light of the present escapes my sight and leaves me behind. In truth I don't know why?
I need to know has the light forsaken me brushing me away, it creates a crater in my soul; there is no more hope for it to heal. Every waking minute the crater expands until there is nothing left to give to myself and others. How could I have been lead down this road of destruction? I continue to fall down farther and farther through this everlasting hole with no faith of ever climbing out. Oh! But I need to know could I ever be repaired, some day into the distant future waiting here for my knight and shining armor to save me from this dragon of fire that scorches my heart every time I try to open up. I used to have a voice but now I don't speak at all. All hope vanishes as the days go by. I fear I will parish with no love in my young life. I have learned that there is no love here but there is no pain nor is there any hatred but I have very little faith that someone will come and free me from myself from this world and the evil that lives here. I fear being alone. But all I have is me. Everything in life was not made to be permanent when all else fails or dessert me all I have is me but I fear that only me will not suffice, but this is all I have, no money, friends, or family. Just alone. I don't want to be alone, but I'm afraid I have no choice in the matter.
