Breaking a Record

The burden of guilt is heavy,
but I deserve a break.
A Sunday off,
I seldom take.

At first, they'll be shocked,
but that's okay.
They can deal with this
in their own way.

Although ten years is a long time,
it couldn't last forever,
yet I can't stop thinking
that I could do better.

It's not even my choice anymore.
I've given up the right to choose.
I'll sit up and comfort myself
as something I've word so hard towards, I lose.