The pain i feel now is worse then ever i cry every night i die every day i watch you all the time wishing you were mine. i lie awake at night i wish not to cry i just wanna die. how painful it is? how mad i am now you don't seem to care i wonder what came between us? now it seems every day i regret ever meeting you and then i feel bad all the time. i don't know what to do? i don't understand you? in this life and mind body and soul i am so very misunderstood by all. the pain is worse now every time i have the bald so close to my hand the thought of you comes into my head i don't wanna cry any more i am so sick of the pain but the only way to clam my mind and soul is to die but i don't wanna feel the pain of the blade i just wanna sleep and never have to wake up. I'm in my room in the morning i lay in bed i hear my grandmother calling my i dare not get out of bed but then my mind moves my body and it picks me up and i get dressed i don't know what to do i have no control over anything i do except when it comes to you and that blade.
