Giving up Spring

I am shut down to the world
I brought it apon myself

No...dont help me
You cannot help the helpless

You will be rid of me soon
Just say the word...it is my doom

Pleas go away i feel now only sorrow
It hurts so much i cannot say

Ill hurt you if you try
Just leave me in my misery

But there...there is a spark of hope
I dont know how you did it...
And i dont know why...

All i know is...when i looked up
There you were...

Shining brighter than the sun
Melting away my winter

After cold long death of the world
I soon...I feel chearful

And soon i come to realize...
This rope.this knife.no.
It cannot be

A feeling of mortality rushes through the cold heart of mine.

Now I realize...
Treasure your life...

life again

my heart

It hurts...

Will you help me?

Help me cary my heavy heart

I give in... i love you more than you belive.. i see that now

And as i reach for you...

I slip
I fall
and the last thing i remember...
was your smile

It reminded me of the spring...
Full of life and happiness,
joy and sorrow...

I regret putting the rope round my neck

but...too late now