Thoughts and emotions

As a free spirit,
You guide me around,
You have taught me,
And through out, I have found.

You are my earth, my spirit,
My guide that will take me places,
To see many people as I travel by,
To see the look, upon peoples faces.

You can take me and show me the way,
To show me how to live in this world,
I shall learn by your ways,
I want a brick.. to be hurled.

You tried to show me, but you can't,
For you see my anger has built,
And I just want to lay here,
Lay here.. beneath my quilt.

To not be seen, and away from everyone,
As I try to find who I might be,
I think about it all.. love life,
All those things, people can't see.

It all controls my emotions,
It controls who I am,
But I can't help it,
It's just who I am.

You want to control my feelings,
The way I act and the way I feel,
But you can't help at all,
This will be, my last meal.

I will never eat again,
Never speak or think,
I'll just sit here in the darkness,
You'll never see me blink.