I Could Have Stayed Like That Forever.

[To Daryl: I wrote this poem after Evie's sleepover, the one where you were the only boy. It may say things that weren't true, like the flirting, but I know that I was wrong now because it's all been explained. I didn't put this here to hurt you or make you re-live it again, but to show you what I felt. Don't ever think I hate you, because it's NOT true. Thank you for everything, even if it didn't work out. Thank you.]

We had been distant for a while,
Drifting apart,
It hurt me, but,
I remained silent.

I felt alone in the world,
Unsure, and paranoid,
I cried myself to sleep some nights,
Silently.

We went to a sleepover,
I was quiet and upset,
Nobody noticed me crawl under the bed,
Silent.

You noticed I'd gone,
You followed me under,
Held me close and asked what was wrong,
Silence.

You kissed my cheek,
My forehead, my lips,
You asked and asked,
No answer.

There wqas no way to explain,
How it seems you'd been flirting with her,
And yet avoiding me, so,
I kept my mouth shut.

You took my hand,
Our eyes met in the dark
You told me you wanted to help,
Nothing.

You went for it then, kissing me,
Holding me close you tried to persuade me,
I touched your face,
You touched my lips.

Then the words seemed to fall out,
Explaining all my doubts,
My hurts that we'd drifted,
We hadn't spoken, hadn't hugged.

You looked so sad,
I felt so bad.
You whispered your sorries,
And kissed me again.

Over and over, you whispered,
"I love you," and "I'm sorry." against my lips,
Your hand found m waist,
I let it stay; it was comforting.

It was OK then, except,
I hadn't mentioned the 'flirting',
I didn't want you mad,
So that stayed hidden inside.

I crawled out from under the bed,
You followed me, hugged me,
That night I slept next to you,
You held me close.

I must have been crying in the night,
Because I woke in your arms, face damp,
You kissed the side of my neck,
And told me it'd be alright.

I leant my head back onto your shoulder,
Your arms comforting around my waist,
Your face next to mine,
I could've stayed like that forever.

I felt special, loved, wanted,
I soon fell asleep again,
Comfortable,
I could've stayed like that forever..

By Katie.