Addiction

It's so addictive
This thing I do
I try to ignore it
But slowly I can't ignore it

So I grab my knife
And cut into my arm
I'm not even depressed
But it's like a drug

My drug I can't stop
It's my way of feeling
But I don't know why
I want to feel pain?

I can't tell my friends
I can't tell my family
I want to tell my boyfriend
But I don't want to make him sad

My knife sits in my dresser
Calling me night and day
It's my drug
I'm not a stoner just a cutter

I don't know how
My friends can quite
This is like smoking
But just more addictive

Cutting is something
I need to do
Well I don't need to do it
But it's just so hard to stop!