Afraid of Myself

The thought of what I'm capable of makes me afraid
For the past few years I feel like I've had a foot in the grave
Afraid of the many nights that I've cried
Waking up screaming because in a dream you and I have died
So many times that I have tried changing my ways
But in an instant I realize it cant even last days
Im afraid of myself I cry with in
I'm afraid of myself but not just me..I'm afraid of everybody else