Lost Today

Woke up feeling lost today
Never before have I felt this way
Wondering why my world is black
If it's yours, take it back

Held my tears in
Lived in sin
Tried to hold back all my pain
Don't know why, there was no gain

Stupid smiles
All the while
Blank faces on empty cards
Glass smashed into tiny shards

Broken images inside my head
Faces smiling, people dead
Gunshots echoing in my ears
Hands shaking from new fears

Saw you smiling at me today
Never before have I felt this way
Looked away before I cried
If you'd seen me, you'd have died

Can't say why it's like this
Can't explain, it just is
Accept me as I am
But I don't know if I can

I need to wake from this nightmare
I'll cry to you coz you care
I know you might turn me away
But I don't think you will, not today