You never cared...

Listen to my tears as they fall...
Ripping of the last piece of soul
And dripping on the burning paper
As i try to become something better

Will u be able to grab my hand?..
As I'm sinking in the sin's sand
Or shall u let me die worthless?..
Watching me calling u senseless

U never cared about my mind,
That deep inside wants to find
Explanation for all your actions,
That slowly killed my inner construction

My scars become now deeper and deeper;
I want to be the pain's keeper
To wander solitary in my tortured being
Cutting,smashing and devouring each feeling..

I scare u by exposing all this?
Watch as u see my stoned fist
Hitting your mind's narrow wall
And hurting your pride..making u fall..

What if i can't destroy u?
Then..I'll seal your thoughts not inside u
But inside of me...as i smile...
Whispering :"It took me a while.."

From now on my laugh will be false
When u look in my dark eyes..think at worst
Your gently looks can't fool me anymore
I'll carry all this in me forevermore...

~© by Andra - thanks 4 looking~