Can we be together?

Broken friendship

it was 21st february when you guys confronted me.
but before this happen i was really happy, TRULY happy
because my birthday was coming, saw you guys avoiding me
thought it was all planning for my birthday party
i keep asking and wonder why is this happening, day by day most of you are away
not much jokes and fun are brought i feel left out, crying in my bed alone
tears in my sleep, thinking for the reason and fault i have done
next day I was told that my criticism was bad
a lot of them are hurt, they confronted me, but all I have to say was,
I wanted to save my friendship with all of you.
people hate me for who I am hate me for what i have said,
friends say bad things about me and left me instead
no one stood up for me but simply just see me cry
day by day even when you see me smiling, that was fake my, my heart was in ache
theres gonna be a netball training on 25 february, my big day
thought you guys are gonna celebrate it with me
too scared that i will be sabotaged, so i didnt turned up
then not a wish except from a true friend, atiqah
from that day everyone was away.
i know you guys hate my attitude, but this is not the way.
looking at you guys faces makes me cry and realize my mistakes
i regret it for once, never will i do it again, NEVER
each day, to tell the truth, i dreamt about all of you,
sometimes one of you appear in my dreams
the happy moments we had, i see you guys smiling and laughing away
but when i woke up from my dream thought it was happening
but nah, it didnt but i hope it will. but now we are slightly ok.
i am starting to laugh at her jokes and the lame ones
i am happy even when she ask for my help in her work
now some of them dont even wanna smile or look at me instead they walk off.
some events are coming up after the mid-year exams
the newpaper big walk, birthday events and other netball activities
i want it to be like last year, please you are my only laughter and my 2nd family
love you guys, truly.