Dear dad .
i remember some of the good times we used to have like when you used to tuck me in and when we used to share food, especially hot dogs and fries.
i remember the fighting you and mom did, when you would yell and hit her and i would run into my room.
i remember when you got divorced and it hurt me but of course i still loved you.
i remember when we would go out to mcdonalds and you would by me a cheeseburger kids meal..or we\'d go to the playland but i was wearing sandals with no socks so you\'d have to buy me some.
i remember when you took me and my brother a week longer the you were supposed to and mom had no idea. you really worried and hurt her.
i remember a couple good things and the good memories we have but you have to know that i also remember the bad.
i do remember the days when you\'d get mad and throw me against the wall.
i remember every single time you yell at me and make me cry.
i remember when you got married to someone who could care less about me.
i remember the times you\'d tell me to leave and not come back and then beg me to come back and so i would and it would only be for the worse.
i remember when i cried so hard i was coughing and you didn\'t care. your own wife laughed at me!
dad you\'ve changed a lot since i was a little kid. but i have too.
my life was changed forever when i accepted christ into my life.
i go to church and youth group but as we both know that doesn\'t make me the perfect christian.
you\'ve told me not to go to those things because it doesn\'t help me at all.
it might not help me physically but it helps me to grow in my relationship with god. i learn more about him and i learn more about how much of a father he is to me. he loves me no matter what sin i commit and he as well cares about what i do. he DOES care about the bad things he do but he is willing to forgive. he cares about and loves it when i do good things. he is proud of the things that he has created..and that includes you.
no matter how much hurt you\'ve caused me he still loves you. he knows that you can do better. he loves you dad. and so do i. i as well am willing to forgive but i don\'t think i could forget.
you hurt me badly. so many things youve said or done has broken my heart.
i\'m doing this this way because i\'m too scared to do it to your face.
dad i really do love you and you have to know that. i want to forgive you. i hope you can understand.
we\'ve had so many good times but that was so long ago that i can only remember so few.
i\'m a lot older now and you\'ve even said teenage girls are too emotional. if you know this then why do you still hurt me?
dad i know you might not get around to this but i hope that someday i\'ll get the courage up to say this to your face.
to say youve hurt me but i love you anyways.
why are you like this? did i do something to make you upset or mad? if i did.. i\'m truly sorry and hope and pray that you\'ll forgive me as well.
