I can't let you go

There are so many things
I wanted you to know
I never told you how much I loved you
And now you'll never know

I know deep down dad's struggling to let you go
but he can't nor can I
You were the only person that could make us smile
but now you're gone
and I can't let you go

It amazes me how strong mom is
she let you go and now when we speak of you
she wouldn't cry but smile
I wish I could do the same but I can't because
I don't want to forget you.

My report card wasn't the best this year
It's because you're all I could think about
And when I think of you
I can't smile
all I do is cry

Crying won't bring you back
But it's all I can do
I wish to visit you're grave
but it brings more pain
I'm sorry but I can't let you go

You said it yourself
You prefer to die than quit smoking
When I think about what you said
It makes me feel like you didn't care about me

It's been almost five months
And I still can't let you go
I tell no one how I feel
because I don't want to remind them of the pain
Nothing is the same without you

I never got to tell you Goodbye
And now I never will

We were here all together yesterday.