I dont want to love again

I don't want to love again
cause only at first feels like heaven
but later in my heart creates pain
it cuts deeply pouring like rain

then I become lost in this world
in a dark world with no one to hold
and everything I hear
all they say is fear

I don't want to open the door
cause I might fall on the floor
I don't want to love again
cause i might still feel the pain.