I wonder why . . .
I was driving on the road with no lights
And the car swerved
And I know I shouldn’t have had
Those extra drinks that night
She was throne from the car
And I hit my head
Next thing I new she was dead
And I was behind the iron cold bars
Those bars couldn’t hold my misery
It was my fault
I was driving
Why can’t God just take me?
I wonder why . . .
I’m missing something
I feel so empty
Like something swallowed me that night
And my world won’t stop spinning
I feel like I can’t feel anything
Then again I feel bare
And naked
Showing everybody everything
But I also feel hidden
And covered
Like everybody couldn’t know
And I know they don’t.
I wonder why . . .
My past haunts me
I cut myself just to feel pain
I try to not remember what happen
But her I can still see
People they judge me
They think they know
But they have know idea
Of what I make myself to be
I live in my own world
Ignoring the comments people make
All the hate
I know they show towards me.
I wonder why . . .
He is trying to be my friend
He sits with me at lunch
And I know I can’t get too close
Or I’ll end up killing him
I’m cursed
Killing people left and right
His face is so beautiful
And I’m drawn to him like the night
I couldn’t stand to see him go
To see his lovely face
Screwed and twisted in pain
I can’t stand to be so low.
I wonder why . . .
He wants to know about my past
It’s a horrible fate
I suffered so much from
And I’m getting away from it at last
If I told him
He would desert me
Leave me
To bleed in my misery
It would break me
He is in my soul
Tormenting me
It’s like love.
I wonder why . . .
He loves me back
He kisses me
With his lovely lips
And wipes my tears with his fingertips
He caresses my soul
With his eyes
They penetrate it
Making me take to the skies
He accepts my past
And says its not my fault
He says it was meant to be
I have someone to comfort me at last.
I wonder why . . .
He saved me
I know Helena is happy
I know she smiles upon me
And at myself I’m not mad
I’m not sad
He took me out of my demon mold
Now I am an angel that lives upon earth
That’s how it’s meant to be
I’m a fairy that sleeps
On petals
And a star
That sits upon a crescent moon.
