Goodbye

As i watch the world around me
I feel so scared to join it
I'm safe inside my shell
But i hate putting life on hold
I need to find some peace
Inside i am insane
Deep down i know that i believe
There's more to life than pain
So many things i don't understand
Why your not here to hold my hand
I don't like the cruel things on this earth
And missing you just makes it worse
The fact that I'm still breathing
Must mean i need to grow
But negativity is expanding
And where you rest is my home
I curse the fact i must get up
And look for something new
To fill the space of happiness
I lost when i lost you
I'm searching blindly for all the wrong things
I take the scissors and cut the strings
To all our precious memories
Like they never existed
As if forgetting will ease the pain
But i care too much to be so vain
No matter how hard i try I'll never forget you
RIP Karl I love you forever