Scared

I am so afraid of you...
I see you when I am dreaming...
Those are not dreams, they are nightmares!
and I always wake up screaming.

You were not right,
but I feel like I was wrong...
I feel like it was my fault,
but it was you all along...

I am haunted by your fingers, your face...
It is so scary....it stings...
No one was there to make it ok...
No one scared away the wicked things...

I hear your voice sometimes...
It is rough and makes me want to cry...
I wanted to think you were honest...
but everything you did or said was a lie..

You make me feel scared...
I curl up, I shiver, I do not breathe...
I try SO hard to forget...
but your memory wont leave...

No matter how cool you think it was,
No hatter how Ok I make things seem,
You ruined everything...
and every notion of you makes me scream....