My Punishment

Why does it have to be this way?
The way I live is just not right.
I think about him everyday
And dream about him every night.

Sometimes things get so confusing.
My friends don't help; they find it amusing.

One day he acts nicely and sweetly
Then the next day he ignores me completely.

Was it something I did?
Was it something I said?

Sometimes I think he likes me too
I always wait for some kind of clue.

On the days he's nice, I feel like flying.
On the days he's not, I end up crying.

Maybe this is my punishment from up above.
I guess I just don't deserve to be loved.