The Pain I've Shed

If only you knew

how it is to be me

to be alone, to be scared

to have nothing left to hold onto

to be let down by everyone you love

to be broken, emotionally strained

yes I am not alone and what I hold dear to me now

you cannot take away

you can no longer hurt me no one can

I have no feelings anymore because of you I am alone...

because of you I hated everything

because of you I hated myself

but now I see clearly

that you weren't what I thought you were

I loved you but now I hate you

you don't want to talk to me

that is fine I wish I never knew you

I would have never been hurt like this

never would I have wasted so much time on something

just to watch it fall on me

its been awhile since I could

hold my head up high

and its been awhile since I first saw you

but now I see that those were never meant

to be anything other than another disappointment

now I know what I must do

you make it clear with every passing hour

that you never cared like you said you did

you never cared about me, me feelings, and my heart

that you broke in your hands and gave back to me

heartache.... that's all you've ever caused me

but no more will I be afraid to say when I don't like something you did

and no longer will I be afraid to say what I think

and no longer will I fear my rage I hold inside

because of you I now know that hate is real

that it does exist and now I know

what people said so long ago was true

you are a wh0re you never have really loved

and you've never been hurt

you are so cold and you don't even know

you cannot see what your doing

or what you've done

and I know now that its not something I've lost

its something you've lost its your loss

and you will regret it......

if you never see me again don't wonder why

you have brought this to me

my doom is now apparent

but I am no longer alone,

brothers give me your arms....

I hope you see what is now gone.