DEDICATED...

Are you truly mine
or am i truly blind?
i know love hurts and pains
but how can \"like\" do the same?
see, \"like\" is alike
i find myself sweating in your presence
for a sense of your essence
is to ascend into heaven\'s.................
well, you can finish the sentence
anyways, today i find myself a poetic pathetic
worth less than i should feel my price is
priceless
because my life is centered around you
yet you never realized
feel eyes on your back every night?
feel desire conspire to retire by your side nightly?
might be me
but you\'d never know
or care to know
because if you did
i wouldn\'t feel so conflicted with this business of interest
i rescind in to the depths of my self
my self-pity
is she mine?
will we survive the fate of all my past dates
relationships
i regret my mistakes
hopefully i learned the secrets
to keep her
yet i\'m speechless around you
which explains why i am so down around you
i found in you a kindred spirit
we\'re both shy
afraid to die
in a lonely heart
broken from the start
it\'s hard to trust
(trust me, no one understands this more than me)
but could it be
the thing holding us back the most
is only me?
if only \"we\"
could be a \"we\"
in my eyes
then maybe this crazy feeling of pain i have
can truly be proven to be
psychosomatic
created in the spatial hatred of my fearful mind
my fearful heart...
so to my dear sweet karla i beg of you
let us live
let me be the one you love
you care about
no one means as much to me as you do
do you
do i
do we
know the future
or what it holds
if i give you this poem
will it be tossed in the cold annals of your subconscious
can i exist in your life
can i be the one
no one cares about you more than me
no one breaks their heart
or takes their better sense
and casts it in to the cold rain
to know pain
just to hold you
and have my hands tossed away
this is not a break-up letter
this is not a complaint message
just let a nigga know what he has to do
to truly make you happy
because so far i\'m failing
i\'m drowning in a pool of my own destruction
that remains 5-inches deep
you can throw me a lifesaver
just tell me what i need to do....