YoU dOnT gEt it dO u ?

MaKiinq up jokes
makin you smile
this is all part of my plan
juss to make u laugh for a while
but you havent seen me when im alone
im juss sad
uhappy
and cold
dam you juss dont know
how it is in mylife you think everythinqs all jokes and smiles
well its not its hard work and maybe my mother will love me for awhile
no one cares
and juss lyk that youre unaware
of my feelinqs that i juss cant bear
in the mirror i look at myself and think bak on my mistakes
and thing dam ur a disgrace
too this whole race
how could you be soo dum
making youre mother cry in the middle of the nite
im sorry for all the stress that ive caused
for all the memories that have been lost
i look up at the sky
and pray to god that i wont die
atleast not without saying goodbie
juss praying for them better days that never come
im tired of tears
sick of all these fears
i want to rejoice
i wanna hear a voice
juss to knoe that im not in this alone
i juss want to know that god will protect me
even wen im on my own.........