How I feel For that knife

How I feel For that knife
You think Iâ??m oOK|_But you wait for that day
No longer will I be here
Sick after every tear
I hate my life
Thatâ??s why I need the knife
It eases my pain
And brings on the rain
But to your face I have to lie
If you knew, YOU would cry
You wowouldn't?t understand why
No matter how hard you try
I love you for trying
But now I am crying
Watching myself bleed
More blood is all I need
Now as I think, another tear falls
Ignoring another one of their calls
They donâ??t see it the way I do
That much is true
Thatâ??s why I canâ??t tell you
Then youâ??d look at my life
And see how I feel for that knife.