Ugly on the inside

I'm ugly on the inside
& each day it grows harder to hide.

You used to be able to confide in me.
We used to be good friends wouldn't you agree?

But something in me that was once alive,
Is now decrepit and has finally died.

Now my heart is black
& I miss the feelings that I lack.

It is true...
Beauty is only skin deep
& what you sow you will reap.

I've dug a whole that never ends
& with myself I can't make amends

I've gotten myself into such a mess
& I can't deal with the added stress

I'm a cynic and a recluse
for these things I have no excuse.

I revolt myself and others as well
No need to say, I can already tell.

I'm ugly on the inside
& can't go on bright eyed
these feelings
they just won't
they just won't
subside