I ment it

I ment it when I said I love you
I ment every word I said
And I really did have dreams of you
Each night when I went to bed

But to you it was a game
Another game you sought to play
I guess I made the wrong move
The second I thought you'd stay

I'll stop lying to myself
I know there is no chance
But I still hear those words you say
It's like you got me in a trance

How could you act like nothings wrong
As if my heart you didn't break
There's nothing really about you
Even your smiles are fake

It hurts so much to see you smile
After how you made me feel
And I had of this broken heart
You managed to steal

Now I know without a doubt
That its not going to be returned
Now another piece is broken
I guess my lesson has been learned

I write my words down on this paper
These words to you I cannot say
Every time I try to speak
Some kind of fear pulls me away

Maybe I'm afraid to see
And look deep into your eyes
I don't want to know the truth
I'd rather believe your lies

Those lies that made me smile
Because they sounded so sincere
The ones you told me everyday
The only things that kept me near

Now I'll have to walk away
With my heart completely shattered
I just hope you give it back
If anything at all mattered

Did you even mean a single word
Did you not care a bit
I guess it didn't mean a thing
That my heart you caused to rip

I was a fool to think you cared
But how can I move on
I must learn to live with your truth
Since all your lies are now gone

But nothing really matters now
Nothing ever did to you
How could I think I had a chance
To be something more with you

*This was written by me when I found out that my ex-boyfriend and my ex-best friend had sex while me and my ex was still going out*