The unloved child

Sounding of your screams
you never wanted to cry
deep down with feeling
all you did was die

you left me that moment
you broke that promise today
i sat next to you and cried
and watch my heart float away

i swear i'll find your killer
and take my sweet revenge
but i remember you saying
it never helps in the end

you were my father
and you had no right to die
you said it right to my face
why'd you have to lie

you said you wouldn't leave
you promised you wouldn't go
you started one simple sentence
and now i'll never know

why you never showed love
and why you never care
and why every time i cried
you told me to wipe my tears

for you its OK
for you, you always say
a adult has a right to
a child will never get away

what does that saying mean?
why was it you that day
i should have been me
because they were aiming for me anyway