Wrong thoughts

It's just like a dream,
I try to wake up,
there's nothing to see,
and there's no one for me.

I look for a reason,
to keep up with life,
I can only think,
of the times that we had.

Just look at me,
at what I've become,
I think of myself,
as a stranger from all.

I can not believe,
all the things that I've done,
they don't sound like me,
maybe 3 years ago.

I just want to scream,
quit myself from the world.
But I just keep on thinking,
maybe you don't care at all.

How can I make it change
this feeling my heart
doesn't only control
but just wont let it stop.

I try to remember,
when I thought it was right.
Was it really that good,
or was it all that I had.

I can't help myself,
from thinking that you,
are maybe the reason,
of my thoughts going wrong.