No Hope Left...

Observe me reach for help
Watch me agonize
No one knows my abnormal perception
They just feel so mistaken
They have no trace
I'm disconcerted personally
Specialists have no evidence
Guidance tries to assist
But I'm still pushed to live
I'm still crowed into this nightmare
A mind so damaged
A girl so fearful to wonder, Why me?
I'm so worn
But I can't relax
If I rest, I awake not inhaling
I rise in my usual Underworld
I can't wander the steps
I can't master
So many questions
Too many pills
And abundance of tears
Not knowing my certainty
Satan is reflected in the mirror
Once undivided
I'm now a shattered girl
No one's informed of what I undergo
The stress is taking a turn for the worst
My mind just gets tormented
My downheartedness is to an unbearable summit
The medication has declined
Suicidal reflections are with me every flash of and eye lid
I'm about ready to abandon
New medication all the time
The treatment made me weary
And got addictive after days
My life was desperate, over
I have nothing to look forward too
My life was untrue
Nothing appeared
I have lost so many tears
There is no hope left
Until one blessing day
Something finally can into picture
I've been having panic attacks
Specialists finally could assist me
Observe me reach for help
Watch me grasp my future
Live with me and my new hope in life